Life from the rear-view mirror

Starting older…er…over… Vol 9

March 13, 2013 | Comment

At 58 I’m starting over in my career. Not that I had reached any amazing pinnacle, but I had gotten realitivly comfortable in telecom after 15 years.

I came home from a company meeting in Kentucky last September sans job…and a little discouraged. I dutifully applied for unemployment, brushed up my resume and began the tour of job websites, networking with friends and former colleagues along the way in an effort to cover all my bases…but nothing. You see when you reach a certain age and salary you become exponentially unattractive to employers…at least that is how it seemed to me.

I began to pray in earnest for the Lord to show me what he wanted for me. Kathy and I were planning on getting married within a couple of months and of course there were the four kids at home that had become accustomed to regular meals. At least I had a paycheck till November.

The last November paycheck came and went. Kathy and I had moved up our wedding date as she found a job up here and after 40 years we were getting to know each other again at a whole new level.

I’ve been blessed to have my brother close by. And he was showing me a logo he’d put together for a mutual friend and client of his who had left a lucrative partnership to open an Insurance agency of his own. An idea started forming in my mind.

Way back 29 years ago in Texas, I had worked in insurance. Surely I couldn’t have forgotten all that I once knew…it was only 29 years ago. Something had to have stuck.  Maybe I could talk to Rick and see if he would let me work with him…mentor me…teach me the business. I wasn’t getting anywhere in Telecom and this waiting around was killing me. Could this be God’s will?

The conversation with Rick went extremely well…like God had something to do with it 🙂 I kept on sending out resumes but at Rick’s suggestion, I kept working on insurance licensing at the same time. Even though there was no salary to be had with Rick, Kathy kept encouraging me to move forward with insurance. She felt this might be just what I needed…and maybe what the Lord wanted.

Today I have my insurance license and a couple of certifications and I’m more confident than ever that this is where God wants me. I’m trusting God to bring all the rest of the things, like income 🙂 along.

Job must have wondered about his ordeal…in fact we know he did. “Why me God? Even in this terrible trial, that I didn’t deserve…in the face of incredible suffering and ultimate loss… I have trusted you”

I have to admit that if I was Job I might have asked God to take my wife along with everything else  especially during the part where she was encouraging Job to die …but Job continued to trust and honor God through the trial (and nagging). It didn’t make sense but he continued on. I”m convinced that God would have us trust him through the un-understandable. When we can’t make sense of it. When life is just hard, I have learned that it’s almost never about the “why” and the answers to the whys of life almost never come anyway (at least not from God)

But God does promise a few things that trump the “why:”

1) I will never leave you or forsake you – (I’m going through this with you..)

2) God works all things together for good to those who love him and are called according to his purpose – (This trial might not be good…but God will use it for good in my life.)

3) The hope of heaven – (Our present suffering is only for a short while and can’t compare with Heaven. Eternity is forever.)

.For some like Job…his pain and suffering were eased while he still lived. God totally turned it around. For others, it happens as they cross the portals of heaven. In either case God ends suffering in joy and peace for the believer.

I think the hardest thing I have ever gone through was losing my wife to cancer almost 3 years ago. I felt so alone and so on my own. The enormity of what was before me nearly dwarfed my faith. I needed “God with a face on” And God showed up…over and over. In my small group…in my family, in my friends, even in our new puppy who greeted me at the door every day. God didn’t take me out of the storm…but he took the storm out of me.

Romans 8:28  And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.



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